Improvement Goal #1

I have discovered that in order to be successful at something, I have to take things one at a time. Changing a way of life needs to be done one step at a time. If you try too many steps all at once, discouragement sets in and failure occurs.

My goal for improvement is to get to bed before ten at night and get enough rest each night. This will help me in so many ways. First on the list is being patient with my children and being able to show them love instead of anger or irritation.

Most important after God is making sure that my children feel loved. If I can get the housework done in addition that is wonderful. If not, too bad. What is more important? Housework or children? In my life, children! I know that when I die and God asks me what I did in my life, He isn't going to care that I kept my house spotless if my children were shoved aside for it.

That is all for this morning.

Trying.

Almost time for bed. Long day today. Was on my way to the temple with my husband and made it to the parking lot. Decided my headache was just too much for the time in the temple. Nowhere to rest my head in comfort. I know that you are supposed to be able to relax in the temple and let all the cares of the world stay behind as you go in the doors, but somehow that doesn't work with headaches and me. Plan to try again next week.

Been wanting to go for a while and just haven't made it yet. Will try harder in the future. There are so many things that I am trying harder with.

Exercise is one that I am trying and doing. Been going five days a week unless the kids or I are sick. Maybe overdoing it, but for now as long as I can take Sat and Sun off I am mostly ready to go on Monday again. It feels good to be going and have a goal each day. Exercise, preschool, chiropractor, etc., its all good and busy these days.

Well, no it is time for the soft bed.

One more day, one more doctor visit

Wow, how the days have flown. It has been quite some time since my family has been away from the doctor's offices long enough for the employees not to recognize us. Multiple visits for us in the past two months.

Today, my darling daughter went to see the doctor. One more of us on antibiotics. That makes three of us on medicine to try to get over this sinus/cough stuff that has been plaguing us for some weeks.

I am so glad for health insurance that we were able to choose which one we wanted. I would love to pay nothing, but that is not how the world should work.

Work , hmmmm, ah that long ago learned concept from my younger years. What does it mean anymore? It means to me that anything I get for free doesn't mean as much. Pretty much anything works that way. Friendship even - one may think that friendship is free, but if we don't work at it, then the other person is not inclined to be our friend very long due to our snarky attitudes sometimes. Just like our relationships with our kids or spouse - work, work, work is all it takes. Anyone who has kids and is married knows that it isn't easy. We work on all of our relationships to make them good or better, if we don't they go bad to worse and then are gone.

We work at life in general. We do our best and we are rewarded. There is nothing (well maybe something) more funny to me than to see a sign that says "Free Rent". What is free about it? Nothing! You have to sign a lease for x number of months in order to get the first month "free". How is that free? I think that the only free things in life are the "free" samples at Costco or other stores. You take a sample and don't have to give anything back. Of course, with Costco you have to pay for a membership, but with some other stores there is no membership. They count on your taste buds dragging you over to the food case and you pulling a case of "sample" off the shelf and buying it. You only have to fight with your self-control for this. So it is up to you whether you get off free or not.

Well, hmmm - I guess that is it on the "free" speech for now. Just a few things to think about for the day or not. Who knows who is out there reading this - certainly not anyone who gets the internet for free. You must pay, pay, pay to read my blog. Hahahahaha!

Been a Long Long Time

Well, it has been a long long time since I wrote here on my blog. Tiredness, sickness, business and all of that stuff has been interferring with my blog writing. Besides all the time for computer blog reading and game wasting time, there is not much time left for blog writing.

I have learned to multi-task on my computer doings in the last two weeks or so. After I started getting over my ickyness. Before that I felt too awful to think much. During those weeks when I felt awful and wished I had the energy to write on here, my mind came up with a, well what should I call it, maybe poem is too strong a word. Certainly doesn't follow any rules that I remember learning in high school about poems, that is except write what I feel and want.

Bear with me as I put those rambling words down here on my blog. I occassionally get the poetic bent on my mind. Did it this last Christmas for the year end email (not letter or card this time).

By the way, Paige's blog inspired me to take the time today to write something. Thanks Paige.

Went to the doctor and she said pish posh
You have nothing but a cough and a wheeze
And a dynamite sneeze
Just use your inhaler whenever you want
And oh, by the way get this other one full of sterrhoids too.
Rinse your sinuses twice daily and soon you will be as good as new.
A week later and things were still dreary.
Less of a wheeze, still coughing,
Oh no, lots more dropping from my sinuses down to my tummy
(Not so yummy)!)
In addition my ears had decide to join in the fun
And the joy and the glee that was the rest of me.
Another visit to a different doc.
I sat and sat and watched the clock.
It always takes longer the more pain you ponder
I am glad I had words from my library book
to take my mind off from the pain.
An exam and an x-ray and two hours later
I emerged with the verdict-
An ear infection she told me and lungs both quite clear.
Take this antibiotic and drops in the ear
And please don't forget this Tylenol with Codeine you hear.
So much pain, I was dying, I couldn't even sleep.
I just wanted to curl up in the dark and quietly weep
I coudn't, I knew it -
Why? Do you say?
Because the crying would make it hurt worse
and then I would only need one more thing - a hearse.
I took all the medicine like a good girl
And got over feeling like a churl
But, ten days later my symptoms came back
I felt like it was all coming back with a whap
Help me I cried to the doctor again
I feel like this illness has been here too long
Over a month and getting too strong
What do you want, she said with a grin
Viruses come and go on a whim
Make it go away I whined
I need to get better let my life be mine
Another round of medicine may do the trick
Be healthy, get rest, drink lots of water
Be good to your husband and your little daughter
I will try I told her and left with a moan
Then I perked up and thought more
My ear infection was gone my life was much better
I thought of my sister and friends and the others
Who have other problems that I wouldn't want
I have it so good, just a little virus
That has been here for over a month
Just think, the medicines can keep it under control
For the rest of my life, be it one day or two days or 50 more years
I will feel better and better as I try to be healthy
And get my rest and try my best
To look at my life in the way that I should
It is hard and lots of work, but I think that I would
Rather do that then stay down down down low
In the depths of despair over months of illness
When God is waiting to help me feel up and alive
And enjoy all the good things that are here for me each day
Harooo Horaaay!

I always have problems with ending a poem. Don't know why. Reminds me of a book I read once or twice where one person could come up with the first three lines and never get the last line. They needed another person to come up with the last line. Of course, that last person couldn't come up with the other three lines. They needed each other. Just like we all need one another in our lives.

I have had lots of time to think and read while I wasn't writing. I guess you all (whoever you are) get the benefit of that now.

Totall Awesome Tuesday

Couldn't think of a better title so that one is it. Actually, it is a pretty good day today. For waking up multiple times in the night, I had a surprisingly easy time rolling out of bed this morning.

The power went out last night. Just for a moment, long enough to turn off the air filter. Wide awake. Comes back on, then off again. Just as I was getting back to sleep, the power comes on again and with it the light in the bathroom. Awake again. Hubby automatically turned it on when he walked into the bathroom during the powere outage. Forgot to turn it off. I poked him to get out of bed and turn it off. On his way back to bed, he ran into the laundry basket. Even more awake.

Took a while to get back to sleep again. Just as I do, my child comes in. I tell them to get into bed until daddy gets out of the bathroom - getting ready for work. They lay their head on my shoulder and proceed to sniffle their way back to sleep. (Notice I said they went back to sleep. I can't sleep with a child in my bed. Wish it was different as there have been tooo many instances of children in my bed in the middle of the night or at naptime.)

Daddy gets done getting ready for work. Takes child back to bed. Get back to sleep. Child comes in again. Whines that daddy is getting ready to leave and don't want to bug him. I think to myself, why do you have such an easy time bugging me. Daddy comes up and gets child - back to bed. Child immediately pops out and starts whining. Drag myself out of bed and go tuck the child in. Have to tuck the other one in as well as they have woken up during the whining.

Get back to bed and back to sleep. You may be wondering what time it is and if I am just lazy. Well, lazy I may be but not in this instance. This all happens before 5:00 a.m. Yah! Who is lazy now? A bit later same child comes into my room - change diaper mommy! Change diaper and jammies as diaper has leaked - back to bed they go. Back to bed for me also. Toss and turn and get some little more sleep.

Finally, it is a more reasonable hour to wake up - 7:00 a.m. is reasonable for me I think. Wish it was more like 8 every morning. Children come in and wake me up. Get up, get ready, get breakfast, get clothes for children (older one already dressed), get diapers changed, get child off school, get home, vacuum, clean, child home from school, lunch, down for naps. Writing on Blog! Woohoooo!

What a busy morning. Somehow I took time out for FT, FV, and FW on FB. Love these acronyms. Now to get the dishes put away, new load in, ice my back, ready for a child to come over to play, ice my back some more. Gotta go until another day when I make time for this.

See ya!

Birthdays

I am not sure that birthdays and aging go together. I don't feel any older on my birthday than I do on any other days. Even though people seem to expect the 20, 30, 40, 50, and 60 birthdays to whomp you on the head, it just hasn't happened for me yet!

I didn't feel any older this year than last year. Oh well, maybe I am getting younger in my head, just my body is getting older, maybe? I neglected to write on my birthday as I was too tired in the evening. It is a sad thing that I didn't because all of those good feelings I had have now faded and are a shallow passing memory already.

I remember thinking that I really should write. Even the next morning I was thinking about all the wonderful feelings I still had and how I should write them down. Then the unthinkable (why do we always say that when we think it) happened. All the good feelings and nice wonderful loves, hugs, and kisses in my emotional happy bank - deposited on my birthday by my dear husband - were swept away by a wave of disapproval and negativity. On a Sunday morning no less (as if we are soo much better on Sundays). It sure unmade the day for me.

To top my day off, all of the lessons at church were about love and family and husbands and wife communication, positivity, working together, couples prayers, etc. etc. etc. It was good and appalling at the same time. Who wants to hear about all of that wonderful stuff when it is not happening in your own life and should be? Especially, when you want it to be and the other person who should be hearing all of the information either refuses to go to class with you or is in the men's class where they so don't get the same info from the same lesson!

Once again, this too did pass. Things are a touch better. I am more calm now. And yesterday was a wonderful day until I backed into a dark green car in front of a dark green bush in the dark last night. Haven't heard from their insurance yet, but my husband assured me last night that we would be paying for my mistake for the next three years at least. Ahhhh, the postively negativeness of it all! Oh, well! Life goes on and good and bad things happen.

Off to bed for a nap today if I can manage it in between blogging and laundry and kids napping.

Aaaaaah, the pain!

There is something about having a headache and having your children climbing all over you that makes the day sooo much worse then it was.

Today started out slow and continued that way. Tired when I woke up and didn't want to get out of bed. Somehow I dragged myself out of bed and got myself and my children dressed and ready for the day before preschool. I even collected the library books that were due. I was so with it for being slow!

Dropped the kid off at preschool, went on to drop the books off from one library and pick up the books from the other library. On to pick up the kid from preschool and home to lunch and hopefully naps. My hopes were dashed! The kids refused to stay in bed and take naps, which of course, meant that I didn't get my nap either. They also refused to leave me alone for my nap. Also got stuck with two poopy diapers. The oldest has got to become potty trained someday before kindergarten I am positive!

Well, I am still dealing with the slowness for today. Maybe I will be faster tomorrow. This chiropractic "care" is hard to deal with at first. One of those gotta hurt a bit before it gets better! I am hoping for the better soon.