Birthdays

I am not sure that birthdays and aging go together. I don't feel any older on my birthday than I do on any other days. Even though people seem to expect the 20, 30, 40, 50, and 60 birthdays to whomp you on the head, it just hasn't happened for me yet!

I didn't feel any older this year than last year. Oh well, maybe I am getting younger in my head, just my body is getting older, maybe? I neglected to write on my birthday as I was too tired in the evening. It is a sad thing that I didn't because all of those good feelings I had have now faded and are a shallow passing memory already.

I remember thinking that I really should write. Even the next morning I was thinking about all the wonderful feelings I still had and how I should write them down. Then the unthinkable (why do we always say that when we think it) happened. All the good feelings and nice wonderful loves, hugs, and kisses in my emotional happy bank - deposited on my birthday by my dear husband - were swept away by a wave of disapproval and negativity. On a Sunday morning no less (as if we are soo much better on Sundays). It sure unmade the day for me.

To top my day off, all of the lessons at church were about love and family and husbands and wife communication, positivity, working together, couples prayers, etc. etc. etc. It was good and appalling at the same time. Who wants to hear about all of that wonderful stuff when it is not happening in your own life and should be? Especially, when you want it to be and the other person who should be hearing all of the information either refuses to go to class with you or is in the men's class where they so don't get the same info from the same lesson!

Once again, this too did pass. Things are a touch better. I am more calm now. And yesterday was a wonderful day until I backed into a dark green car in front of a dark green bush in the dark last night. Haven't heard from their insurance yet, but my husband assured me last night that we would be paying for my mistake for the next three years at least. Ahhhh, the postively negativeness of it all! Oh, well! Life goes on and good and bad things happen.

Off to bed for a nap today if I can manage it in between blogging and laundry and kids napping.